This will be a short one
If there were ever a time to spew my emotions onto a page, this would be the time. Unfortunately, I have no idea how to write that well.
Wednesdays are burn dressing change days. Today was a difficult Wednesday, they are always difficult, but today was especially difficult. Each Wednesday I give my best effort to be positive and hope that it rubs off on the kids. Today my efforts were useless. I had only 2 or 3 kids that were [noticeably] positively affected. These few did keep my spirits up for the nearly 4 hours I spent in that room. By the end of the changes I sluggishly walked back to the office feeling about 30 lbs heavier. I slouched into the chair and just couldn't move. I did not see any other patients today. I walked home and sorted through some thoughts.
These are the days I remind myself that I do make a difference, even when i don't feel like it.
To say the least, i was feeling rather melancholy for a while. To remedy this, I went climbing. Climbing is my solution all my life's problems. :)
love you all and miss you all
Silly girl, you answered your own dilemma..."only 2 or 3 children were noticeably changed..." You ARE making a difference!!! It's just that you can't spare any of the children from this season of this journey...and you are bearing part of their burden w/ them.
ReplyDeleteGlad you found something to do to recharge your batteries. Then remember there is One Who is the Good Shepherd...Who also cares for these little ones & promises to make good out of bad, to be present, and to give grace for each moment... All we need to do is ask.
Hope you feel recharged as God's love overflows your heart to theirs.
Love, M
thanks mama
ReplyDeleteOh, Christy. You're completely right. Whether you realize it or not, by being a positive form of support and comfort for these poor children you are instilling hope and optimism upon them. They are absorbing your comforting words and actions, and whether they internalize your love in the moment or a few days from now, just know that they are most definitely receiving it and I'm sure it gives them hope. Keep up the good work with the kids. It's paying off...both for the children and for you. I'm sure of that.
ReplyDeletelove you SHP and love that God is using you to touch His little children. what a powerful extension of Jesus' love to them you are... just being with them, sharing in their burden, bringing hope and smiles, and tending to their wounds in whatever way the nurses ask you to help. also glad you got to do some climbing... good for the soul. :) love you, miss you a ton.
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